The idea of writing this post has been in my insomniac mind for a long time now. It took me lot of braveries to write this one. The simple thought of it used to give me headaches …but now …I am here …without any regret, I thank my black coffee and cigarettes…
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Twenty-five
years ago
You came into
my life
Made my life
lively, vibrant, and colorful
Did we
deserve…?
Of tying this
knot of togetherness
You got the
answer …only after three years
He was going
to turn three
And she was
about to come into our lives
It was
supposed to be
…a life
complete with contentment
But then I
had to go…
I disappeared
without a trace of my footsteps
…to lead you
to me
Was it a
mistake …I still don’t know
A wanderer in
me …regretful of God’s blunder
But then who
is to be blamed
For the man I
was supposed to be
The man
…to fulfill
your needs
…to satisfy
your desires
But then who
is to be blamed …it is Him?
For the man I
was supposed to be
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You have
never seen me in person
Yet love me
so much
Crave for my
love …so indissoluble
Don’t blame
yourself for all of this
The
protection for you is abundant
These twist
and turn in your life …very soon
Will make you
content, satisfied, and buoyant
I love you so
much
It twinges so
gravely when I see you like this
You are one
person
I regret I
could never meet
You are the
most beautiful
Precious part
of me
It kills me
to see how you feel about me now
I wish you
could see me
But then who
is to be blamed
For the
father I was supposed to be
For you my
loving daughter
Oh darling
don’t be insecure
The love you
get
Will never be
less
Always be
more
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I’m so happy
to see you
A handsome
young man you have turned into
The empty
space in your life
You filled it
with these responsibilities
Which I
disfavor …were enforced on you to obey
The pillar
for her that I could never become
The fatherly
duties that I could never implement
I see only
you doing …my golden son
Without any
repentance
I still wish
to be there in your growing days
Introduce you
to the things
Which came to
you as revelation
The wrong
things that could have been clogged
The
experiences only to be shared
Between you
and me
Came
rancorous upon you
The
hollowness in you …I can sense
Is all
because of me
I hope you will
forgive me
Never
mourning these afflictions
Take care of
your sister
Always love
your mother
I will be
there
Watching over
you from afar
Yet to close
…blessing you from above
Guiding you
in all your endeavors
I consecrate
you to be the man
For the man I
was supposed to be ...could never become
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Here I am
Watching all
three of you
How I miss to
be a segment of your lives
To be part of
all escapades
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Yet we will
meet again
One fine day
…which still is so far
Go now …find
your own light
Before we
meet again
Smiling and
shining in delight
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